what makes you, you

I've been doing a lot of thinking, lately..

today I was down at the beach, looking out at the water and mountains.

the sun is warm and beaming on my face.

there's a nice breeze, a little cool

but it's fresh, and clear

I liked it

it was a good balance

I came to the realization that i take so many things for granted.

all my life i've been slow,

and what i mean by that, is when something has finally

become clear to me... a lot of times it's too late.

how did i forget to appreciate all these things and people around that make up my world,

my life

my happiness.

Sometimes in life we feel like we're walking in a tunnel,

we get up and do our usual things,

we become to expect that certain things will be here and there and

we keep forging through so that we can get to the better and brighter, "clearer"

end of the tunnel.

but maybe if we looked around and lose the tunnel vision,

we would see everything around us.

This beautiful day

the sun in my face

this cool breeze blowing my hair,

my funny dog digging in the sand

this beautiful city i live in with mountains

and an ocean and views that fill me up with excitement of many possiblities.

my friends that love love

my friends that are all different but wonderful and funny and creative and smart and strong.

my friends, all with different amazing opinions and qualities that i can learn from them,

even if i don't agree with them.

Oh how they can make me laugh and smile

I appreciate my music

what i know, and what i learn everyday

and what i will know one day

My ukulele, can ALWAYS make me smile

And you know, i do worry

i worry all the frickin' time.

what is going to happen to me when i lose all, or any or even just one of these things?

that is my fear

to lose anything i hold dear

but what i think i need to do,

is to worry less about what is going to happen

and appreciate more what is happening now,

what's here,

not over there.

don't worry, i know i'll get there,

but don't miss everything in the process trying to get there.

That would make the journey pointless

everything in the middle, makes me who i am..

the sun in my face,

the wind in my hair,

my dog digging in the sand

the mountains

the ocean

my cat

my fantastic hilarious, talented, creative, smart and strong minded friends

my ukulele

my music

my everything and my everyone................